yoyoyo new life has come....

wow...really long time nvr write blog jor...lazy to type lahh!!but nw gt time faster type ba...the year of 2010 is coming...hope we get a year that is better then 2009^^ is been a busy week 4 me 4 preparing 4 sckul and the church stuff but i still love to serve GOD...amen!!!so yea...everything about last time that is bad i will forget it and i wun set in my mind again...hehehe about love soli lah cnt tell u all...kekex^^ but dun wori i am still single...lol...=.='' juz wanna hope get a better year that it...

SPM time~

oh...his spm come ady dun knw hw he feel le??so miss him le haix dun knw he knw a nt le.... hope he knw hw to answer the question la but i will stil pray 4 him...^^ OMG!!!!he tell me he vomit le so damn wori him lo but he go slp ady maybe he tmr will sms me la haix...my mum went in to hospital and he vomit so worry dont knw hw is him nw.... nw SPM lo summore sick make ppl wori oli jek...hope he will get well soon la...=p i dun him to have any problem lo....T.T get well soon le... maybe tmr oli find him ba....=) i must stannd strong to take care of them... jia you oh jin wen is a good news that u like him.... faster accept him ba^^

my life nothing without him..=(

i dont even knw he gt lyk me or nt....but he treat me quite nice also lo...he care me sum time 2 but i dun even knw that he wanted me or nt he scare whn i be with him he will take advantages frm me but i think if u love some1 no matter what bad thing abt him u also ok de...i dun k about his bad thing if he wn to take advantages take la...but he dun wn me to be regret....i dun knw la nw my mind is juz wn to be wif him and that all....=) but i dun knw he wn or nt...hope he will coz i reli love him so much that i cnt stop myself he worth my life 2...but nw he ady graduate he wun be in KEPONG BARU anymore...sometime he make me reli vry hapi...^^ i hope that he wun forget me and always remember me....i reli hope he will accept me...i hope he reli chg 4 his bas things la but i dun reli k....cause i love de is his heart nt his attitude....the most romantic day on earth is i be wif him whn raining day thx...^^but i wun tell...hehe^^ i wun forget about that day de...^^ hope his SPM will get good reult may the lord bless you(the love i love) hehe^^gambateh...love you muackx~heheehehehehehe^^will nvr chg my heart.....*i love you forever...*

CAN U PLZ STOP THAT!!!!????

i have enough already frm u...ya last time i did knw hw much u love me..but nw no point although i knw i alo dun wn to knw....cause i am ady OUT OF IT....i dun wn to be in this conversation anymur..i dun wn to knw hw much u love me...u r making me MAD.....HATE you...ya god reach me to forgive and forget and i try to but i cnt..whn i see ur msg i dun feel like reading juz feel like deleting...cause ur msg is ANNOYING....last time u say i am kinda noisy so what about you???u very good nw is it??u say my family giving u trouble??FINE....if u wn to love sum1 u also muz love her family 1st ut u did nt....u have a evil side i try to chg u but is u r the 1 hu dosent wn to chg for this sun service i will nt sit with u..hu k about it??u mad u crying or wateva is ur fault u no nit to tell me anything...trying to cheer me up??ITS TOO LATE....everything is over nw..ya last time i did have a feeling toward u but nw i cn tell u seriously is NO...i reply bck ur msg juz dun wn to make thing worst....dun think that i am giving u another chance....i am giving face to esther oli...nt u...and stop calling me dydy only my best fren or any1 cn call me dydy but except u...so juz stop it will u??u ady very annoying....i will nvr give u any chance again its final....so i hope u will stop sms me...ARGH!!!!

you say all lo...i no nit say anything jor....=X

i tell u the truth and u think i am explaining to you....i did not wan to explain d lo...i am juz telling you and u think i wat??whn u kao mei duno wat u think d lo...whn u angry i duno so i put hahax la...thn i feel u so weird oli i knw u angry...u think i GOD meh??i knw everything??if i knw arhx i ady knw my future husband is hu laa...=X u making me mad at u oli lo..i wn to be fren wif u oli i find bck u if nt i choi u also siao laa...my digi is 4 those hu use digi de and my maxis de is use 4 those hu maxis ma..thn my digi no$ also wan sms ppl d ma...so i mai use maxis to sms ppl la and u think i dun wn reply u??u say everything lo..what i say u also say excuse d laa...ARGH!!!!if nt u fren also dun wn to do ma??i am reli mad whn u sy me say the thing is excuse lo....=X fine laa...is kinda my wrong also...ISH....

no mood jor lo=(

生日快樂我的寶貝根慈~原來你的生日是那么的快樂而我生日就一直給人做弄和欺負!真可憐... 最 近 发 生 好 多 事 情... 令 我 都 没 有 什 么 心 情 了... 我 知 道 有 一 个 人 很 关 心 我... 我 想 在 这 里 和 他 说 谢 谢 噢! 我 又 跟 同 一 个 人 吵 架 叻! 又 是 我 教 堂 的 一 个 无 聊 的 朋 友... 明 明 那 个 男 的 是 我 教 堂 最 帅 的 帅 哥... 我 跟 那 帅 哥 是 好 朋 友 叻~ 现 在 我 那 帅 哥 为 了 我 一 个 无 聊 又 讨 厌 的 朋 友 害 到 现 在 我 那 帅 哥 不 理 我 了... 害 人 精 的 朋 友 害 到 我 最 帅 的 朋 友 都 不 要 理 我... 看 到 我 又 扮 看 不 到 连 说 声 嗨 都 没 有 叻~ 死 害 人 精... 你 开 心 啦? 你 知 道 你 很 令 人 讨 厌 的 吗? 我 每 次 和 你 吵 架 都 是 你 赢 的... 就 是 你 错 我 都 要 说 对 不 起 叻 你 赢 完 啦... 真 令 人 讨 厌... 你 小 过 我 的 就 要 有 礼 貌... 你 跟 本 一 点 礼 貌 都 没 有... 不 怪 得 那 么 多 人 叫 我 不 要 和 你 做 朋 友.... 我 感 觉 上 想 和 你 绝 交... 但 我 应 不 应 该 这 样 做 呢?? 现 在 我 跟 你 吵 架 我 就 给 别 人 骂... 你 就 做 那 些 生 气 的 样 子 让 别 人 来 关 心 你 弄 你 开 心... 你 每 次 都 跟 别 人 讲 我 错 的 啦!! 在 你 眼 中 我 有 什 么 是 对 的? 之 前 你 又 那 么 的 讨 厌 我 那 个 帅 哥 现 在 又 对 我 的 帅 哥 那 么 好 很 明 显 你 是 爱 上 了 我 那 个 帅 哥 啦... 我 问 你... 你 是 不 是 喜 欢 上 他...?? 你 回 答 我 没 有 就 没 有 啦! 哇... 回 答 人 的 时 候 都 没 礼 貌... 讨 厌 死 人... 我 应 不 应 该 离 开 那 教 堂 啊? 现 在 我 在choir 里 都 不 知 道 要 不 要 离 开 叻! 我 想 离 开 但 可 以 吗? 跟 这 些 无 聊 害 人 的 人 做 朋 友 有 一 天 我 真 的 会 死 叻~ 辛 苦 叻~ 烦 恼 多 到 死... 我 又 有 一 个 干 哥 又 是 那 害 人 精 的 干 哥.... 我 应 该 要 离 开 那 干 哥 吗?? 我 为 了 这 件 事 哭 好 多 次 了 啦~ 我 不 想 再 为 了 这 件 哭 了... 为 了 害 人 精 哭 真 苯 叻~....

about my birthday 5-9-2009

haix...on my birthday that day gt camp fire...so i woke up and went to tuition with my 2 dear again wei and ching...xD afta that staright away go hme and eat rice 4 like 15 minit nvr atop also le..i am rushing jor cause gt the youth choir video...so i eat finish faster go church by the way the camp fire is in thr FRIM every1 wear so simple except me i wear until like go wedding ppl kip asking me''u going FRIM like that a??''and i say ya cause later i gt party...(my birthday party at tenji sushi buffet) so i went thr i feel like every1 ignore i though my birthday should be every1 talkig to me and wish me cheh!!!oli 2 ppl wish me oli...thn every1 ignore me pula...i was so sad and i dun even have 1 present T.T even that the 6 sep the girl get the present but i dont have...owh and i feel so sad so i went to jamie car all girl i also dont know geh so i did nt talk to thm but jamie introduce me to thm so those girl talk talk talk and i smsing tze all the way...so reach FRIM waaaa....gt GAME to play need to run up and down the hill i have no more gas jor stil nit to run cause nit to get prize man...haha..our team name''KAPAL SINK''cool....so i play a lot of game is very tired...and every1 is ignore me again....but i know 1 neew girl jor haha but nt that close afta the game she also go find her fren so thx 4 jasmine lend me her clothes coz is reli sweat a lot...thn gt ppl prepare BBQ DINNER 4 us...thn i be sitting alone sms with tze also and i looking at my leng zai guy and the guy is looking at me so handsome man OMG!!!...thn i saw my leng zai church guy smsing bt he sit quite near me laa thn i was thinking hu he sms a...that time i was typeing the msg 4 tze thn i saw my ph gt msg i was thinking is it him...OMG!!is reli him i was so hapi....thn he ask me y u antisocial??thn i mai say lo also no1 talk to me and every1 like ignore me...thn suddenly he stand up cheh tough he wanna sit beside me and talk to me but he did nt he go find jamie and he standing up and talk to me''y u dun wn find donald''i say dun wn laa coz paiseh and he bz..thn jasmine come so the leng zai walk away ady so sad T.T thn i go eat TENJI the food was awesome....^^ thn i sms my leng zai today my bday u nvr wish me o...thn he reply sorry lo...happy bday whn the camp fire show start a girl automatic sit wif him i so jealous ARGH!!!stupid girl...yeah...^^

my lao po cute cute owhx^^

haha^^today i saw my lao po tie her hair le...so cute^^like 1 of my teddy bear...but she nw a day seldom choi me jor sad sei....T.T my lao po i love you very much...but you always see me also no responce geh..sad sei...haha..my lao po scold shan in front of him she so sad haha xD...but its ok de ma...i knw that every1 has scold b4 geh...no nit sad geh lao po...xD...no matter hw u look like i also love you geh....hah today tuition with my 2 dear dear 1 is ching and another is wei....i bring sweet go waaa....they eat finish owhx...especially my wei...eat so much later her teeth also no more lo...hahahahaha xD...but me also gt eat la...haha xD....haix..today spot check hair waaa...nearly kena catch but always i b4 i come in the pengawas also say cindy ur hair thn she write my name sad sei...haix..always write also duno my marks hw wor..recess let that pengawas write my name again...ARGH!!!the socks also nearly kena but did nt....haha xD...and recess time as usual lo see him again..haha xD

DAMN YOU!!!!!!!

i was damn angry whn i knw that you sms him but by that time i think that you like him thn i wanted to go find out...DAMN YOU LA....i sms you today so nicely....say hey...i heard him say that u sms with him wor u dun angry him jor...??thn u reply me....y?cnt ar?u go and tell him i dun like him izit..?THX TO YOU...DAMN IT LA....you early on ady dun like him la...futhermore....i say about him infront of you thn u go and say your husband a..i hate to hear that thn u walk away...DAMN LA....thn whn you see him you will angry and walk away you angry cause of his attitude and he spread your stuff to every1...DAMN YOU la....also nt him spread is u r the 1 hu did it obviously thn dun go and blame ppl so wn if pak tor...hu k??jan and sarah also like that lo...hu k about you??DAMN IT....you knw that i like him thn dun sms him and ask his this ask him tat lo...at 1st angry ppl nw treat ppl good obviously you like him la...that guy i like 1st de lo u knw it also nw stil wn do all this stuff to me??F... U la....stil wn angry me...although i did nt tell him u HATE him he ady knw la...he cn feel that also la...STUPID....yes...i admit i gt say but you also cnt angry wor the truth is you did HATE him...so accept the fact la...angry me 4 wat??DAMN YOU...ur fault lo...about ur ex stuff i ady did nt angry ur ex forgive him 4 wat he done nw u angry me??F...U la....CB...ARGH!!!i DAMN ANGRY YOU LO...u think u wat??princess??SUCK YOU LA...CB....today i saw uncle paul(nicole chew father) haha...Nicole is saving her money to buy the airticket 4 me to go australia to go visit her....haha thx nicole haha...nw nicole is my 9 year best fren like waaa....haha muackx nicole...

happy holida owhx...woohoo...xD

haha..this is the holiday which i am the most hppy holiday that i ever had...haha xD...but i dun wan say it out wakakakakakakakakaka^^....haha my birthday is coming soon dont knw what to do on my birthday haha yen ling and my whole class want make a surprise 4 me owhx whn i ask thm they dun wan say so bad...but on my b day that day i gt camp fire with church friends...so cool...but all my classmate celebrate v me on sep 4 haha...that sure will be my most happy day also...haha xD...i think this year birthday is most happy geh gt suprise worhx...hope all my fren will wish me larhx or maybe they will forget thn i will be very cham...=( haha gt present thn gud lorhx....wakakakakakakakakaka^^

should i leave U or nt??

i duno should i leave u or nt?i scare i cn make u sad or anything...if i leave will u be hapi??i hope to see you hapi de...but i cn tell u...i stil love u very much...nw a days i dun wan to look at u so obviously coz its nt a good things to do that...@.@ so whn u dun even notice i will oli look at u...today i quite sad quite hapi...today whn line up go class zhi le use her buttock and bang me o~pain pain da zhi le...haha^^whn afta sckul my mum quite late and pick me up so me,natasha,jin wen went to 'gai gai' so natasha say WL going to find her so she want to go fokyer thr and look 4 WL...but whn me,natasha,jin wen walking to fokyer i was talking to natasha thn suddenly natasha say eh,look thr whn i look i saw XXX extually she want me to look at XXX...thn i saw him jor i also act nth coz i duno what am i gonna do i reli love him but he does nt care de...so went to fokyer kenny gf looking 4 natasha thn they chat so me and jin wen chat loo...so i told sha,go canteen or go outside company wait my mum loo thn she say cn...thn was walking outside saw XXX again he haven go back de...thn i told sha dun go out loo we sit at canteen thr laa...thn she dun wan o she perpously stand at the guard hse thr so no choice la follow her...saw XXX was waiting(duno hu he wait) thn i saw yee mun walk outside and he is ady gone thn nvm loo...but whn XXX at outside waiting for duno hu and i was talking to sha that time i was looking at XXX hehe^^hope dun let him knw i gap him laa...if nt paiseh da...haha^^

i hate every1

i hate every1 loo~every1 also dun wan choi me...they oli think i am toy whn they need me thn want me;when they dun need me they dun wan me...they will throw me away like rubbish....also no1 sayang me geh...i sms xxx also dun wan reply likee ignore me long time jor he treat me like that last time treat me so good now le?dun even k jor loo....why every1 need to do like this and hurt me?i gt feeling de le...i am nt dead da...T.T no1 even know what i want d...i oli wan some1 to LOVE me CARE me TREAT me GOOD....but all this thing no1 cn do it for me...today in church i learn lot of thing....its reli good....too my heart...no1 k de...no1 know i sad or nt hapi or nt de....NO1 k a....my heart crush joor...today i play with alex lee(church fren) super funny o...but my heart de problem reli very hard to solve it but my is hard they just cry thn enough but me i cry also no point solve also cant solve a...this world also NO1 reli wan choi me geh...every1 like ignore me...why am i in this world 4?no1 even k am i in this earth a nt..oli GOD k...i reli suffer a lot but no1 even k they just now to called me sapo dun cry laa no point geh...even i always used cry to relax myself is no use i cnt even relax myself but i suffer more....argh...@.@ what cn i do wor?what cn i do i oli cn hapi?y every dun choi me geh?xxx dun choi me...xxx bro dun choi me...lot of ppl dun choi me...i am what to thm?am i a rubbish to thm?reli no1 k me geh~~~i talk what also no point laa....fine la....my life is so difficult de la...sure i wun have a happy life...T.T

no mood jor laa~

i duno y la nw a days i like to tink too much...lot of my fren say...:sapo,dun tink too much la' maybe i reli tink too much or maybe its true...i reli suffer a lot on xxx but he did nt even knw some ppl tell me to tell him I LOVE HIM u tinnk i dun wan say a...i wanted to but i scare later i reli tell him he wun be fren with me anymore...T.T i very fan a....y ppl cn pak tor till so happy wor??they gt ppl sayang but i dun have...T.T i reli LOVE xxx so much but my fren like play with his bro xxx and i knw that my fren same time PJK with him but i am diffrent from it they call me say HI to him i wanted to but his have a gang of fren thr i also dun dare la...he knw i gt fever but he dosent even k me..just look at me cough...no caring...i feell no warm no LOVE i feel so difficult in this life....i reli love him so much but he does not k he does not knw....i dun knw wat cn i do nw...i feel like i am nothing to him....i wanted to forget about him but i cnt...i see him i reli wanted to go infront of him and hug him...but this thing wont be happen....CAUSE IKNOW THAT ME CINDY WILL NOT HAVE TRUE LOVE I WONT BE WITH HIM DE~CAUSE 1ST:HEIGHT PROBLEM 2ND:ME AND XXX ALSO NOT THAT CLOSE 3RD:HE DOES NOT K ME I DUN EVEN KNW WHAT CN I DO ALREADY although i suffered a lot but i tink is worth it...dun wori la....i wun choi him at least 1 month a.....

love a person reli difficult d~T.T(to all the girls)(tze)

i knw all my ji mui also sick of LOVE but i knw that alomost all the people also sick of LOVE some people also stupid go and kill themself...what i think is like this...coz if u like a guy the guy treat u so cool u though the guy think u r fan or anything but actually they did nt hurt you...although they had hurt you just forget about it and find other d....u must find your TRUE LOVE onli you feel that u r ok...yes girl "zhu dong' will hurt thmself...sometime guy very stupid de...love a girl but act NOOB NOOB...=.=to ALL GIRLS:FIND YOUR TRUE LOVE SO THAT U WONT GET HURT BUT NOT SIMPLY FIND A GIRL AND FINE~~WAIT TILL YOUR DREAM BOY COME OUT ONLI PAK TOR...DONT JUST SEE HANDSOME BOY AND ''KAU''THEM gambateh a all the girl..some guy bluf d play ppl feeling d(HATE THOSE GUYS ARE LIKE THAT)tze:i dun wan see u sad again coz of xxx...u stil have your gang of ji mui and me what u scare wor no guy wont die geh~~~i always love you tze...muackx.....haix...to me le...love xxx reli difficult i must ignore him act i cnt see him...whn he look at me i act duno but actually i wanted to look at him but i dont want later sure he will tell all his fren gt ppl kau him la...so i dun wan whn he online i so hapi we gt many tings say d...hehe^^love a guy cnt put too much love on hm coz later whn he hurt you,you are the one who suffered...dun be silly anymore girl....

half sad half hapi day

yeah~vincent gor online and chat with me a lot~and xxx chat with me o so hapi...he some more say me prettie yeah~whn he eat reli so cute...feel like see summore...sad is i feel so down o suddenly without any reason haix...darling tze...dun sad aymore la those ppl nt worth it to be sad...juz be hapi u stil have ur gang of ji mui and me wor...scare what jek?do his kai mui la beta thn nth...try ba...gambateh!~~...~...ching...dun sad anymore la do wat u like i will support u~dun k wat ppl tink about u or wat ppl say do wat is rite!!!jia you

u leave me alone here~

today i cry in the class coz of two ppl 1 is U(xxx),another is gor(vincent tan)gor is leaving tonitez at 10 o clock flight i knw that i gonna miss him...but i knw that he will be back...another 1 is U...dont talk thn dont talk lo...i sms u also dun wan choi me d la...i see you like so kind u also duno y u dun wan reply me thn fine lo...=.=i dont even know what u want...i very confused la...plz tell me what u want...i reli miss hw u treat me last time...we been through a sweet memory..^^i will remember every single ting happen between me and U(xxx)but although hw i miss it u dont even k about it u oli ignore it....fine if u dun choi me...as long that i have my fren^^

给别人知道你秘密的感受

为什么你要知道我秘密噢？你当我是什么？你可以随便看我东西吗？我也有私人空间的你连我一点点的私人空间都不给～好过分噢～有时，真的好讨厌的～你还一直问我有男朋友噢我都说我没有但你一直逼我讲我有好难相处～令我难过及了。。。你根本就不相信我，我讲什么都，没用啦～随便你讲什么啦讲你也不信～算了吧！

the most no mood day

haix...u sms me juz 1 msg then i reply n sms u a lot but u dun choi me...u did nt even k about me...i am very sad in front of my family i need to act nothing...cause my mum had a hand operation....i dun wan her to worry....yeah~~my exam finally improve...i get 24 in my class is beta then last time so i nit to kambateh to make good result...i am sad that he nvr reply me n k me....sometime u make me angry but i will stil love you...and at here i really want to wish jun ping treat kwan ching good...cause kwan ching is my ji mui...the most best n good d ji mui~~i wish jun ping dun play but love her more....i hapo kwan ching get the happiness from her lover...kwan ching sure very happy if jun ping treat her good...kambateh^^but sure i wun get hapiness from him....

today i very sad a~~my friends know already

sorry...gan tze i did not mean dont let u know i know them d...not i perpous d lo~~cause i know that if u know that i know them u will be very angry me...that y i suggest dont want to tell u...i am sori~~but dont scold me can ma?i did not mean to...i juz wanna be friends with them...can u forgive me?i am reli sad whn i know thst u angry i also dont know hw to tell u..i scare whn i talk to u,u will scold me...cause i know that kwan wei,shi nie,zhi le also will help u d...i tmr hw wor?i am reli sori la....dont angry la!!dont angry jor la...plz...sori sori sori....T.T i am scare and sad whn u know that this ting happen....sori sori sori sori sori sori sori...................T.T today i receive a flower from fong chan yip but i know that this flower he wont give me d...actually is heow sze how give d ma...

my heart pain until i want to die...

today was sunday i should be going church but i did nt..cause i cnt slp the whole night i was turning here n there cause i was thinking of him...when suddenly i think i feel asleep...when i wake up is already is already 11a.m. my heart pain again...none stop i try stop it but i cnt my heart is already hurt but i feel that some1 put salt in my wound...he hurt me a lot...when i watch romantic movie my tears has drop down...i think he hurt me a lot...this morning when i wake up i sms him i tell him sorry if i did anything that he dont like or i make him angry but until nw he did nt reply me...maybe his hp no more credit i reli duno~~when i think of him and tomorrow my heart start to pain again...i duno what should i do when i see him tomorrow?i always think that i company him in the canteen...i guess the wrong people jor....it was so funny...bbut nw the day has pass...the new day of me start to heart pain...every1 say that he maybe like me..i was thinking that also but i duno the real answer~~i feel like telling him...ei...i love you i really wanna tell him but i dont dare...i scare he is playing...~~~i love you...if 1 day u did not reply me or talk to me my heart will stil pain until u have talk to me or reply me...heart pain d me reali stupid...~~

Carnival Day~~~

today is the most happy day in 2009~~couse i know that someone will company me in my carnival day...he call me to go and find him...but when i found him he did look at me but he never say anything to me...i never say anything to him also cause i dont dare and he got a lot of friend futhermore,i know that he keep on look at me i also got look at him...but we never talk the whole day...sometime we just pass by but we dont dare to look each other...i am scare~~but to me he got look at me is already very happy^^but when i found him and keep on follow him he still never company me...it seem that i company him more~~today,the whole day he did nt company n talk to me...and i feel that he is ecaping me...he make me feel scare~~yes...he make me love him more but last few days he really make me very happy...i which my day will be like last time we sms each other and so happy...but today he make me emo the whole day~~i sms him he did nt reply me but i will still love him...i love you